Didn't grow up drinking city water...

My classes of physics didn't go beyond middle school. In a war-torn country ruled by changed government and  official language, education was bare schooling.  Born with insatiable curiosity made me a trouble kid. I would open anything that ticks. It was my first attempt on an alarm clock. Didn't know the springs needs to be released first. Parts were flying all over the place. Many never found. Anyway, I did not see ambition of more than getting a steady job among my schoolmates growing up. Back then, my plan was business.
 
My studies were planed to work with my children in their high school years. However, divorce got in the way. First I caught my wife's affair with her college. I forgave and she switched job.  Two years on, I caught her second affair again. I could not go on the same path any longer. Then, a dissolution was finalized. It freed me to pursue it, however, regretfully without the participation of my children.

As an outsider of academic physics let me study it out of the box. To me, science is exoteric, not esoteric in affiliations.  The science of nature is all around us and the study has to be logically  comprehensible. Make believe, specious, or playing with words or mind is not science. Flopping butterfly wings causing a storm is as specious as earthquake by an elephant stumping his feet. One  can not make significant difference unless mass reactions took place. A vivid sardine can not make a dead school sync-swim. Often I wonder Nikola Tesla had said to himself in his lonely late life. Nevertheless, I wish it is not said regretfully, "we've missed it.".